Sleuthing for Identity

9/26/06

I am trying to uncover my true identity. My daughter A- asked me what I am finding – I don't know yet. How will I know when I do see it?

A clue – characteristics of my true heart are probably the opposite of the lies the gods have piled on me. And the deeper the pile, the more intense the lie, then the stronger that trait must be to take that much to hide and suppress it.

Anger is usually a cover for fear or shame – it is defensiveness.

Anger is the suppressant for compassion and understanding(?)

Fear is the suppressant of confidence, assurance, peace and boldness.

Shame is the mask to hide my value and deny it.

Ingratitude is...? tied to fear and shame? Devaluing others?

Over-affection belies my true desire to deeply connect with my wife and children.