Just for information sake - I may not be posting very much for the next week or two. My new laptop suddenly lost the light for the screen which makes it nearly impossible to read. I am having to send it in for warranty repair and so will have limited access to the internet until it is returned. If I get a chance to stop by here using other people's computers like I am right now I may be able to make a few posts or read comments in the meantime. And I will also be enjoying reading other people's blogs at the same time.
I suppose this will give me time to practice growing my heart in some of the areas that my mind has been blogging about lately. And I also suspect I may have to go back to the old-fashioned method of writing my thoughts by hand on a pad when my head gets too full of inspiration to keep it all in. Then I will just have to come back later and backfill in my blog when I get things back to "normal".
This blog is definitely having an affect on the way I think and relate. It started out as just sort of a way to express and vent ideas and feelings that I have to no one in particular, just to get them out. But as a few people have begun to read my posts on somewhat of a regular basis it has caused a subtle shift in my thinking to almost be more of a dialog. This can have the effect of being somewhat inhibiting, but I have tried to resist that feeling and continue to be honest and open about what I write. I want to resist writing that conforms to what others may want to hear or expect and just share what is in my mind and heart at the point of writing. I know how much I enjoy reading other blogs that have the ring of authenticity about them and how little I enjoy the ones that seem to have an agenda and are targeted at changing the reader's minds. I guess for now I still prefer to stay on the more authentic side as that was the original purpose that I started blogging in the first place.