Thoughts About Blessing

Miscellaneous thoughts about blessing and identity. Psalm 145 seems to hold a definition of what blessing is. Blessing unlocks resources and authority in the supernatural realm. Prophecy in blessing is God's view, God's picture of life and character that reflects His image. Is God like our false identity, the one we usually think we really are, or like something very different beyond what we allow ourself to imagine? Blessing is re-speaking God's creative words of identity, speaking true identity into existence. A blessing is like impregnating the womb of the heart with the sperm of God's power and identity that combines with the latent seed of our unique individuality to create and bring to life our true identity. The health of this new life, our true identity in Christ, is affected by the nourishment we bring to it. It may not be even obvious for a time like a growing embryo in the womb of a woman, but if we allow it to grow and protect and nourish it, it will come to birth and come out in the open sooner or later as a revealing to the watching world of who we really are designed to be. It is the revelation of our true destiny. As earthly parents we repeatedly fail to properly relate to our children, to feed their hearts with affection and to see them through the eyes of God. But even though we are often faithless He is always faithful regardless of what appearances and feelings insist. Even when we have imparted cursing and been a source of death instead of life, He will continue to pour out yet more grace. While we have tragically misrepresented Him and defamed His reputation, He continues to love and forgive and passionately pursue not only our children but us as well. Allow Him to love you effectively. Worldly economics promises a counterfeit salvation; we think we need money to restore us to our real potential, to empower us to realize our true identity. It uses fear of failure and shame as a counterfeit of faith.

Mind vs. Heart Religion

The mind is the gateway to the heart, the outer court surrounding the inner sanctuary. What is allowed to fill the mind determines the atmosphere that the heart breathes, the diet that the heart is fed which in turn affects the health or weakness of the heart. A religion isolated to the mind does not have the truth and power of heart-based religion because it is not based on true reality. But heart-based religion submerged in a mind kept full of shallow thinking and junk food is a religion of emotionalism and self-pleasing that also is not based on the truth of heaven. Just like you don't feed your physical heart directly, but provide nutrients through the digestive tract and into the blood that determines the health of your heart; just so the mind and imagination and senses are the input points from which the heart draws its strength or is debilitated. Taking drugs to feel good may seem to be satisfying for a few moments but may take years off the usefulness of the heart. Indulging in sin-laced entertainment and pleasure-producing mental and physical activities that are not in harmony with heaven may make us feel good repeatedly in the short-term but continuously weakens the affections and attachments of our heart to God which is the one important criteria that determines our entrance into heaven according to the parable of the sheep and the goats.

Where to find Jesus' Face

As I lay in bed this morning slowly waking up with various worries and relationships beginning to run through my mind, I started turning them over to God and asking Him questions as I often do early in the day. Memories from last night's mens group, my transmission that I very well might have damaged trying to drag 2 tons of manure in a trailer into my garden with my van, the challenge of preparing my heart and mind for the upcoming Blessing event, how to get my heart to open more toward my wife and kids.... The transmission problem (not the one currently being installed in my daughter's car) really began to weigh me down with familiar feelings of panic. After being suckered into self-deprecation and false feelings of guilt for awhile, I finally remembered that God was not taken by surprise by this development nor is He upset with me as my feelings (or false gods) may suggest. But to have any peace I will need to come into His presence with my problem and stay there long enough to let it go and trust Him with it. I reminded Him immediately that He has indicated that nothing that in any way disturbs my peace is too small for Him to notice, and this definitely affects my peace. I began praying for heaven's perspective on this issue and for help to pry my mental fingers off this problem so He could take ownership of it. I also began praying for the eyes of heaven to see differently each person that was coming through my consciousness. I began rehearsing my usual petitions - to show me His face and to cause me to die to self and be crucified with Christ. I try to understand a little better what that means for me each time I pray it so it does not slip into another habit of mindless repetitions. When I sincerely asked God to come and live in my heart today, I suddenly was surprised by a revelation into my heart that fully woke me up and got me excited. We have been instructed to seek God's face - that is His desire for us. I have also been learning the importance of living from the heart and have been making baby steps into that experience over the past few years. But the two ideas suddenly met each other in a way I had not seen before. If I ask Jesus to live in my heart and He takes me up on the offer, then maybe I need to learn to see my heart more clearly if I want to see His face better. For if indeed He is living there, then it only makes sense that I might very well be able to see His face there, or at least a portion of His face that is uniquely shaped to reveal and energize my true identity. As I pondered this insight I also realized that the more I learn to honestly live from my heart and recognize His face there, the more capacity I will develop to perceive and see into other people's hearts. And if the face of God is only seen through the pinhole of our hearts uniquely synchronized to satisfy our deepest longings and desires, then the more I look at other people's hearts along with my own the broader and bigger will become the outline of His face. It sort of resonates with the old Indian story of the blind men and the elephant who all could only perceive and report "truth" from their very limited yet somewhat accurate perspective. None of them were completely wrong, but to know the real truth about the elephant they had to be willing to think beyond their narrow field of input. This truth reinforced my need to continue to learn to live in and from my heart even more. And as I increase my hear-awareness and capacity, the result will be an ever-increasing ability to observe, connect and care for others hearts as my picture of God continues to expand. The gifts to the church in 1 Corinthians are really like pixels on a giant screen that when seen together dynamically reveal the movie picture of God in action and a little bit of His immense passion. Then God reminded me what happened yesterday with my van when it wouldn't start (again) in the parking lot at the Post Office. I had crawled underneath to tap on the starter which had always worked before but not this time. I then solicited a passerby to try to start it while I lay underneath beating on it but to no avail. As I noticed my frustration began to rise I began praying and wondering what God might have in this experience that I would later look back on and appreciate. So I decided not to get worked up about it so I wouldn't have all that unnecessary fretting to feel ashamed of later. I called a friend and he suggested trying to jump straight from the battery to the starter. I had already checked the batter connections and had even tried to jump the relay but with no results. So I crawled back under the van with a paper towel to clean off the starter connections and see what my options were. As I wiped off the starter wires I noticed with some concern that there was an unusual amount of fluid clinging to the bottom of the oil pan and transmission. I wasn't sure where it was coming from, but I carefully looked it over for a minute storing it in my memory for further analysis. Then I also noticed that a small wire had come loose while I was wiping off the starter. When I tried to re-attach it, it was still very loose. At that point I realized that I might have discovered the root problem of the starter occasionally failing, though I was not yet sure. i retrieved some pliers from inside the van and slid back under to tighten up the spade connecter so it would grip better and the reconnected it. Sure enough, when I tried to start the engine this time I was successful. I then had to resist the urge to get upset over the fact that I had paid to have a new starter installed about a year ago for this very same symptom and had still experienced the same problem shortly afterward. So why did the Lord remind me of this incident this morning? I began to accept that, though indeed I may have damaged my transmission trying to haul fertilizer into my harden, God was not holding that over my head like I am used to doing to feeling. Instead, He had used the ploy of getting my under my van to fix my starter to alert me that I needed to be aware of a potential leak before even more damage might occur like what happened with my daughter's car that we now have to majorly repair. For God, transmission problems - which really triggers fears about lack of money in my natural heart - are not a problem at all like I am used to feeling. I need to see this through the eyes of heaven instead of the eyes of fear. I must trust Him with all of my problems, all of my finances, all of my relationships. When I step over into living in true reality I will be empowered to experience "trials" and difficulties as really being exciting opportunities for god to further reveal Himself to me. "Brethren, count it all joy when....." Jesus, show me Your face, both inside my heart and in the hearts of those around me - and very soon face to face without any distorting barriers between us.

The Rest of the Day's Story

Just after I finished writing the first post this morning, I opened my Bible to Romans 8 where I have been camped out for awhile. A new thought raced across my mind and I decided to try something that I seldom do and don't usually enjoy when others try to get groups of people to do in a meeting. As I looked at the various verses in the last half of the chapter I began to read them while inserting my name into each place where it could fit. the effect on me was immediate, surprising and overwhelming as I read "what shall we say to these things? If God is for Floyd, who is against him? God who did not spare His own Son, Jesus, but delivered Him over for Floyd, how will He not also with Jesus freely give Floyd all things? Whe will bring a charge against God's elect - Floyd? God is the one who justifies Floyd!" At this point I was in tears as the reality of God's word began to have a deeper affect on my heart than it has before. I moved back up to verse 26 and started over putting my name in at every opportunity. This is perfectly legitimate, accurate and even necessary if we are to make the Word of God come alive in our hearts. In addition I began to read it out loud so that my own ears could hear the words and register them even deeper. Suddenly I heard my daughter returning to the house unexpectedly. She had just left for school and we knew there were problems with her car (the second one) overheating from the night before. I quickly wiped away my tears and she exploded into the room in frustration with everything that seemed to be going wrong. It was snowing heavy in the middle of April (not welcome at this time of year), we were already having to replace the transmission on her other car (for the second time in as many weeks) and now this car was severely overheating just a mile from home and she was now late for school. Would I please take her to school? We got into my van and as we made the half hour trip to school she continued to vent. I began to realize one important reason God had sent His presence to me so strong this morning and so early - He knew what was coming and that I needed His Spirit inside me. I kept reminding myself of the things my heart had just experienced and chose to continue to hang on to that reality instead of reacting with irritation at being dumped on by seemingly pointless anger that would do nothing to fix a car. I could begin to see that this day was not going to be average and I began to plan what had to be done. My daughter needed transportation at least four times during the day at a considerable distance from where we are living. I solicited the help of two of my nieces to run shuttles for her while I limped the car through the cold and snow to the mechanic in the next town to get a new water pump. Later in the day the mechanic called to inform me that we had a lot bigger problem than a bad water pump - the head gasket was now blown and the car may not be worth fixing at 21 years old. It also needs new front wheel bearings and new struts as well. So I asked him to speed up the installation of the transmission on the other car which was already waiting at his shop for repair. Again I was tempted to give in to frustration and questions about why all this is happening to us seemingly designed to siphon off all our income. But God has been talking a lot to me over the past months and years and keeps reminding me that I need to mature past that kind of pointless and harmful thinking. I remember that I am in relationship with One who has promised and committed Himself to taking care of me. What He wants is for me to trust Him enough when the pressure is on that others can notice a difference in my attitude and my refusal to live in fear. I want to be more like the simple birds who trust their Maker so implicitly that they can sing praises to Him all day long and simply gather the food He provides for them without worry. "Are you not worth more than many sparrows?"

Shit or Saints?

I have been following the blog of a close friend of mine from many years and have been very saddened through her recent very negative experience while attempting to join a local church. It appears that the church is far more interested in image management than in nurturing and loving people with humility. Of course, in the end it is always God Himself who receives the hit in yet another incident of profaning His reputation. But He knows that that is what we seem to do best and He talks about it and what He wants to do about it in Ezekiel 36.

As I read the comments associated with her recent blogs about this ongoing disaster, I was interested by her sister's comment (who long ago adopted a very openly hostile position toward anything at all to do with any church). In the direct quote from her sister, “KEEP OUT of church !!!!! Like I always told Bobby, 'To me your the bestist person in the world, but to other people your just shit' - goes to show I was right again!!!!”

These words have resonated in my mind overnight and I was surprised when I nearly read the same thing in my Bible this morning as I was absorbing Romans 8. There is was in verse 36. “It is written, 'For Your sake we are being put to death all day long, we were considered as sheep to be slaughtered.'” That sounds an awful lot like being considered “shit” to me. So it looks to me like, instead of being discouraged about this latest salvo of “shit” coming from a fan, my friend may actually be finding herself in very unexpected and excellent company – that of the greatest people who have walked the earth. It's just too bad that the “shit” has to so often be coming from the direction of people who claim to be God-followers. But then, that was just the same situation in Paul's case back then.

So take a look at a little of the context of this passage. What I began to see this morning was a glimpse into the very heart of God as indicated in verses 27-29. “He who searches the hearts knows what the mind of the Spirit is, because He intercedes for the saints according to the will of God. And we know that God causes all things to work together for good to those who love God, to those who are called according to His purpose. For those whom He foreknew, He also predestined to become conformed to the image of His Son, so that He would be the firstborn among many brethren.” (Romans 8:27-29 NAS95)

First I noticed the word “hearts”, and I have learned that in the Bible there is a significant difference between mind and heart most of the time as well as in our own experience. God, Who created us and understands absolutely every shiver of pain in our heart and every other feeling as well, is not unsympathetic or unfeeling or even ignoring us. He has provided His Spirit as an interpreter so that the deepest longings, cravings and desires that even we cannot grasp or articulate, can still be fully communicated directly and instantly (talk about instant messaging!) to the very heart of the One who can most effectively satisfy and protect us and love us completely. In fact, I believe that in the passage where it speaks of the “mind of the Spirit”, that this “mind” is actually the heart of God in reality, or at least has a direct hotline to His heart. And of course, we must not be put off by the term “saints” and think that we do not qualify for that position. Opposite to what the Dark Ages taught us, saints are any person whom God is shaping and drawing and changing to become more like His perfection of beauty.

Verse 28 which is often quoted and more often misunderstood, is a declaration of God's amazing ability to take any circumstances meant to damage and distort and hurt us, and turn them on their head by creating out of them another opportunity for us to grow and prosper and be blessed. And the more we trust His good intentions the more freedom we give Him to exercise this amazing feat in our lives.

I observed the phrase in 27, “according to the will of God”. I then saw what that will is in verse 29 – that we are “predestined to become conformed to the image of His Son”. When we come to realize that His Son is the most beautiful, most attractive, most amazing lover in all the universe, then we will no longer be so afraid of being conformed to reflect His character and personality like a mirror perfectly reflects the image of the one that it is pointed at.

“What then shall we say to these things? If God is for us, who is against us? He who did not spare His own Son, but delivered Him over for us all, how will He not also with Him freely give us all things? Who will bring a charge against God's elect? God is the one who justifies; who is the one who condemns? Christ Jesus is He who died, yes, rather who was raised, who is at the right hand of God, who also intercedes for us. Who will separate us from the love of Christ? Will tribulation, or distress, or persecution, or famine, or nakedness, or peril, or sword (or heartless people in large churches)? Just as it is written, 'FOR YOUR SAKE WE ARE BEING PUT TO DEATH ALL DAY LONG; WE WERE CONSIDERED AS SHEEP TO BE SLAUGHTERED' (considered shit). But in all these things we overwhelmingly conquer through Him who loved us. For I am convinced that neither death, nor life, nor angels, nor principalities, nor things present, nor things to come, nor powers, nor height, nor depth, nor any other created thing, will be able to separate us from the love of God, which is in Christ Jesus our Lord. (Romans 8:31-39 NAS95)

While we are experiencing these things it does not come naturally to feel like we are overwhelmingly conquering. It feels much more like we are fast expiring under a dung-hill. But that is the difference between living in the reality as defined by our visible surroundings and imposed on us by the negative messages about our identity from sin-distorted minds, and choosing to believe the much more real reality of what God says is really going on and what He sees and believes about us. Paul did not shout these triumphant words because he was so smart or so religious or so surrounded by loving people who showered him with blessing and affirmations. He was slamming these words against the darkness of the clouds of pain and every scheme of Satan arranged to break him down and destroy his inner choice to cling to the unseen truth about God. Paul had learned that to declare the words of God is to experience the unleashed power embedded in those words.

So Linda, take heart, even while your heart is bleeding and shredded once again. Satan hates to see anyone even get close to discovering the real truth about God and he goes ballistic with every scheme he can dream up to reinforce his worn-out lies. But they are still just lies. You are not a piece of shit – no one is. You are a princess of the highest order and an heir to the throne of the whole universe. The enemy who lost his position at that very spot is so jealous of you that he will stop at nothing to prevent you from realizing your predestined destiny. But the greatest news is that he is wrong and he is not as strong as the One who is on our side. “What are we to say, then, in the light of all this? If God is on our side, who can there be against us?” (Romans 8:31 TCNT)